Dusting Off.

So many things to rant about, so little words left in my head. Deteriorating writing skills. I can hardly put two sentences together anymore. I have a short attention span and I'm am bored out of my head. I want and need to do things but they're either too tasking or near impossible. Yes, its the holy month of Ramadhan, and that is why people tend to get lazy. I'm not used to these weird fasting hours. They blow out sockets in my brain.

I have(had) a checklist of things I planned to do for the next two months in my head but I assume it got lost somewhere in the deepest parts of my mind. Either that or I'm just lazy or procrastinating. My life currently just revolves around editing a game that I might not even play. So yeah, fuck that.

My mind is tired. So many things I need to let out, yet I don't have a single reliable person I can let it all out to without compromising my current state of life. A stranger would be nice, but a stranger that can understand English fluently is hard to find here. So fuck that too. A psychiatrist would be too, but one within my budget should be seemingly impossible to find.

I wanna scream "I Love You" at the top of my lungs,

But I'm afraid that someone else will hear me,

You can only blame your problems on the world for so long,

Before it all becomes the same old song,

Off to dreamworld now. Have a pleasant Ramadhan.

Social

I find tweeting a more efficient way of communicating. I find it less annoying than Facebook. Facebook is too annoying. I grow more and more sad for the human race every time I log in. How gullible people become, how vain they seem and how noxious I get every time I go on. Its just too much for me. And thats just from looking at the feed.

I miss a good conversation face-to-face.

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I'm officially out of things to do. More specifically, I am out of games to play. Games take up much of my time, so when I inevitably lose interest in the ones I do still play, that would mean I have extra extra unassigned hours. I need a book to read. I need a few books to read actually.

I've always been told that I sleep too much. And I don't mind that. I don't even care actually. When you sleep, you get to dream of impossible things. Getting that kiss from that girl you've always liked, beating up assholes you're pissed of at or just acid dreams you get when you fall asleep when you're really high. Dreams are enjoyable. Being awake just reminds you that you have to accept reality and the set of rules you're bound to. Dreams take that away. So what you know about sleep, hater?

I solemnly swear that I am up to no good. I solemnly swear that I am lying.

For that one moment, one part of my life, you were perfect.

For that second in my dream, you were perfect.

Now, you're so far away.

Just too far away.

Demam

Bed ridden, sick, and burning. Not a pleasant experience. I've never had a fever so far away from home. Fevers are always better when you're at a place you love. Will remind myself to keep my health in check.

Had a too long nap earlier, now I can't sleep. Will probably do sometime after 6.

I wonder if anyone still checks up on this blog. I wonder if anyone still blogs for that matter. The blogs here are pretty much wasting away. I can't remember the last time my dashboard had a more than 5 updated blogs in a day.

I dislike talking. Too much talking shows how stupid I am. I prefer people not knowing how much that really is. I watch and observe other people's behaviour. I don't judge until I'm allowed judgement. Then I judge, I get bored, and I sleep. And I leave. Simple really.

Talk less, tweet less, update less, read more, ignore more, live more.

Off to WoW.

In the shape of things to come,

Too much poison come undone,

Cause there's nothing else to do,

Every me and every you.

I don't make sense, washing machine.

Be good,

Be responsible,

Be happy.

A reminder from a past I don't recall, to a future I want over with.

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I don't have time for people. I mean that. Unless you're someone I need to see on a daily basis, someone essential to my life or someone I'd like to be in my life, the most you'll get from me is a hello wave and a goodbye wave. Maybe I'll stick a smile somewhere there in between, maybe a casual "Hello", maybe I'll go so far ask as how your day has been. But the moment I have my earphones back on, I pretend the world only revolves around me and my phone. Everything else........I just lost my train of thought, Goodnight all.