Dusting Off.

So many things to rant about, so little words left in my head. Deteriorating writing skills. I can hardly put two sentences together anymore. I have a short attention span and I'm am bored out of my head. I want and need to do things but they're either too tasking or near impossible. Yes, its the holy month of Ramadhan, and that is why people tend to get lazy. I'm not used to these weird fasting hours. They blow out sockets in my brain.

I have(had) a checklist of things I planned to do for the next two months in my head but I assume it got lost somewhere in the deepest parts of my mind. Either that or I'm just lazy or procrastinating. My life currently just revolves around editing a game that I might not even play. So yeah, fuck that.

My mind is tired. So many things I need to let out, yet I don't have a single reliable person I can let it all out to without compromising my current state of life. A stranger would be nice, but a stranger that can understand English fluently is hard to find here. So fuck that too. A psychiatrist would be too, but one within my budget should be seemingly impossible to find.

I wanna scream "I Love You" at the top of my lungs,

But I'm afraid that someone else will hear me,

You can only blame your problems on the world for so long,

Before it all becomes the same old song,

Off to dreamworld now. Have a pleasant Ramadhan.