New Look

Assalamualaikum

I got bored with the old design, so I decided to change it. New blog title from Sherwood's song, which brings me back to my high school years. It's sad that they've disbanded though.

And just that I can pen these words tonight,

 Is proof enough for me,

That there is more than meets the eye. 

And this is my simple lullaby,

And to try and put to rest any loneliness inside.

Restarting everything. 

Home.

Assalamualaikum,

Home is where the heart is. But what if my heart feels no attachment to any particular place? What if I don't feel at home in Malaysia, I don't feel at home in Egypt.

I dread being anywhere at all at the moment. I dread having to think, having to be awake.

Everything is just a big mess right now.

Serenity is out of my grasp. I'm emotionally empty and spiritually void and I don't know how long this will go on. The thought of failure is embedded deep in my brain and I can't get it out. Too many thoughts, worrisome thoughts, in my head.

Home is where Allah decides for me to be. Where He will give me peace. Hopefully I'll find that place soon and get my life in order. Or truly get my life in order and He will lead me there. InsyaAllah.

Because they say home is where your heart is set in stone, 

Is where you go when you’re alone, 

Is where you go to rest your bones, 

It’s not just where you lay your head, 

It's not just where you make your bed.

Study la lanat.

The Missing Chunk of June.

Salam again.

Just took a look at my blog and realised a huge chunk of June is missing. Having my finals now so not really thinking about updating anything.

I feel let down by myself for not being able to remember much of the past 2 weeks apart from having sleepless nights and sleep deprived days. And those sleepless nights usually having lots of caffeine running through my veins.

But I'm having fun though, cooking and being cooked for, sports and jogging in the evenings, watching football games at night and having long exhausting sessions with medical books.

My messy study table as of right now.

Past year papers for tomorrow's subject, Histology.

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Bukak BB pictures baru sedar, holy cow! Pergi bbq for batch program hari tu.

Tauke ayam Ammar Afi

Tauke ayam Fikri @ Kubang

Hodogs @ Garam Kuttas

Untuk malam OSCAR (One Step Closer To Allah and Rasulullah). Fun night. Caught up with a bunch of people, loads of food and a marriage announcement. But the main point of the night were the talks given. Asking ourselves again, who Allah and Rasulullah are and where they lie in our hearts. 

Tell me that you're alright, 

Yeah everything is alright. 

Oh please tell me that you're alright, 

Yeah everything is alright.

Back to the books.

Dosa

Assalamualaikum

22 tahun hidup, dosa dibahu menggunung,

yang lepas biar lepas, kisah silam tak nak diulang,

sakit memang sakit, tapi esok hari baru,

hidup terus hidup, hanya Allah yang tau,

dan bila Dia panggil, aku hanya boleh seru.

Rabbighfirli,

Warhamni,

Wajburnii,

Warfa'nii,

Warzuqnii,

Wahdinii,

Wa'Aafini,

Wa'fuannii,

My Lord, forgive me for my sins, love me, have mercy on me, raise me among your servants, grant me sustenance, give me guidance, bless me with good health and forgive me.

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Getting healthy!

Futsal Intrabatch Champions!

Jogging with the neighbours.

Study time!

No Point Looking in Here.

Search for a particular person's name on google and you end up clicking on link to yasni.com. which then leads to an old blog entry of mine. which leads you to my new blog entries. such a wonderful chain of events.